This episode today is one that I am quite certain is going to touch your heart and your soul. I'm speaking with my friend Angie good who? Well, she's about to share her story with all of us. And I'm believing that by the time this episode finishes, you are going to one have a newfound appreciation for the lives that we've been given. And to a new found courage to fight all of the battles that are happening in each of our lives individually, with a newfound excitement, focusing on getting the victory in whatever it is, I want us to get right into this conversation. So here is my conversation with my friend Angie, good on how to battle cancer with a victorious mindset. Welcome to another accidentally intentional podcast episode. And today I am truly honored to bring you the guest because her name is Angie good and to kind of give a little backstory, growing up went to a small private Christian school and the gym teacher who was the gym teacher, my whole elementary career basically helped hone my skills for the rest of my life. His wife has become a friend of mine, and we share a mutual obsession with Disney. Which, which is what brings us closer. I feel like it's just a great bond. If you love Disney, you know exactly what I'm talking about. But along with that, Angie, was diagnosed with stage four ovarian cancer last year. And she is also one of the most powerful people I know, in every sense of the word, because she uses every circumstance to give God glory for everything she's going through. And she's an incredible prayer warrior, Angie, literally this year, I have seen her go up to random strangers and ask how she can be praying for them. Which Angie, I don't know if you know this. That's not normal. That is not innate. And that's incredible. And it has blessed to so many people like all of my friends. She has reached out to my closest friends on Instagram and asked how she can be praying for them. And she's never even had one conversation with it. Like this is the person that Angie is this is the intro. This is why I'm happy to have her on and here we go. I was actually diagnosed with stage three ovarian cancer last year and they changed it. In January, January 21. They said it was stage four. Got it because it because it masks the side because it's you know, meta, we say Metis. Right. Did January in January of this year. That's when it became stage four. Yeah, in January of this year became stage four. Okay, gotcha. Let's go back to this moment was it was it in April of 2020. It was it was actually April 3 to be exact. We got the phone call. April 3 asked us if we could just step away from Savannah gave us the news that it was ovarian cancer, that the doctor that they were referring that he was referring me to their office was going to call and that we were going to set up an appointment. So that day, got the call, not only got the call, but talk to somebody that I had no idea how they were going to be with me on this medical journey. I was on the phone with them for 45 minutes. And after I got off the phone with them. I went took a two hour nap. Yeah, that's that's what I wanted to ask is like, take us back to that moment. And let's, let's just hear it like, how did you process that? And what were you feeling? What were all the feelings that went through your mind in that moment? So in that moment, getting the call from Dr. Nelson. Stephen and I were out on the deck. Savannah was in the house. The call came in he said oh are you guys together at that point. We slid the deck door the glass door closed. We have the screen door open. We slid the glass door closed he told us we hung up with him. We embraced as a as a married couple. We prayed and at that moment we knew we had to tell. At that point, our 14 year old daughter. We opened the door, the sliding glass door we asked her to come out on the deck. We told her she immediately embraced me and said Mom, I don't want you to die. And at that moment, the three of us stood up and we held each other's hands and we prayed shortly after that is when the phone was ringing and it was the oncologist, the oncologist office and she said So Dr. Nelson sent me your CT scan. We looked at it I just want to tell you, we're gonna have you come in for consultation. So seven days later on April 10, went in for the consultation. When I went in for the consultation, COVID was happening. So I had to wear a mask. I could not take my husband in, I had to only telephone call him. And at first I'm like seeing this doctor, right? She has a mask on as well. And she says, Hi, I'm Dr. Months. How are you? And she was like, so happy like, she know a patient. She's coming to see this wait, I'm like, Okay, I'm loving this. She's smiling. Right? You know, like, Okay, that's great. And she comes in and she says, Alright, I got a plan. You got a plan, right? Like, okay, okay. And she said, You sound a little. I'm a little, you know, like, got, I was told ovarian cancer. Yep. You got something in there. And she spins around, and she whips open the computer screen, and she shows me the big huge mass that is in my stomach. And then she starts talking about, okay, so we think there's cancer on your liver, and we're going to have to scrape that off. And at that point, I say, Could I call my husband, right? And so I called him and I was allowed to put him on speakerphone. So she then walked through everything with him. And I he was on the phone. And she said, and I'm so sorry, but we're gonna have to do this surgery on Monday. And I know that is your birthday. So one would think, Oh, this really stinks. But as hard as everything was to take, all I thought was if COVID didn't happen, I may not have gotten in with Dr. Nelson. I may not have gotten in with Dr. months, I may not have gotten in and gotten surgery. Dr. Months, looked at my CT scan, went to her head doctor of the oncology department and said, this woman needs to get in now. In three days later, I'm in there. I'm in there having major she caught it major, major surgery on my birthday. COVID happening. Nobody could come with me. I had the most rockin outfit that day. Yes, I had no idea of that. My husband was outside when he dropped me off and he was crying. I didn't find out. He told me about I think it was shortly after we found out in January that the cancer was back. He told me that when he dropped me off in April, when I was waving to him and I was smiling. I was in my Mickey pants. In my mini jacket. I had a little carry on suitcase. And he told me that he was outside crying his eyes out, because he did not know if he would ever see me again. Wow, I didn't. I didn't know how serious the surgery was at this point. I just I didn't Hey, the Holy Spirit had given like the Holy Spirit was in me I had such peace. So I can't. I will never. I mean, I tried to explain it. Like back in 2008 When my sister was killed in a car accident. I just there when that happens like in and it wasn't, you know, it was a little while later, like that I had experienced that like just the overwhelming like, this was a piece like I'm I'm walking down the hall I had a hard time walking. Because COVID was happening. They had workers that were in red uniforms. And like those employees would they would take people with the wheelchairs, right. If they were in a wheelchair, they would wheel them around somewhere or if they had to walk somewhere and the person didn't know where they would go and they would help them get there. Then we're walking down the hall, really long haul. And, and his name was Glenn. Like some of the names like they are in my chemo journal, because they just like, I went back later on and I gave him a gift because that's how powerful he was to me, right? And we're walking down and he said, Oh, I'm so sorry. I I said oh, no, I see you. I'm good. God's got me. I'm in a little bit of pain, but God's it's all good. And, and he's like, Oh, God's got here. And I said, Yep, he's gonna carry me. And he said, Oh, man, you're just wow, you've been smiling since the moment you walked in the door. And I mean, it was just powerful what he said and when he dropped me off where he dropped me off, he said, I'm gonna pray for you. That's why I had to go back and give my man blood a little gift. Because, like, you're gonna pray for me like, yeah, he was bold to tell a complete stranger who hadn't been and Mickey on, he was gonna pray for me. Yeah. So one of my chemo trips, I went back and he was outside. And I gave him like this little gift, I just bought something like at the Hallmark store something little and gave them a card. And each card that I've tried to give to someone, I used the hashtag trust Jesus. But he was he was remarkable. I want to bring this to your attention, because I'm not sure if you know this, because it's literally your mindset. So I asked how you felt in that moment. And throughout you telling the story, you said the words, stinks. And a little bit of fate, which is when you're saying that you're not saying that like tongue in cheek, like you are literally having this mindset where you're like, you know, what? I'm doing? Well, all things considered like, this is yeah, why are you breathing? That's, and that's it, like, you were so positive about it. And, and I feel like, you know, you go through all of this, and you have been thrust into this position, where you've had to not even be able to, at the beginning, even hold space for it in processing it yourself, you immediately had to go into I'm going to be the rock in this situation, because I have a rock. And, and I think that's just so incredible. Because there's so many I mean, every day, I know this, there's so many opportunities for people in your same situation to be like, oh, yeah, I'm ready to give up. And you are completely the opposite. You were like, Absolutely not. You started this Facebook group called Angie's army, which is how many hundreds? For you. It's incredible. Right? Some of them are complete strangers. That's right. No, I actually can't take credit for that, though. I'll let my husband he took credit for that. Yes. No, let me tell you. That was a wonderful idea. Because the encouragement that came through that, yeah, a lot of the people that connect with through Angie's army, you know, I knew through whether they were past students, you know, like friends that I had lost contact with, you know, because you change phones, like however often right? Sometimes your contacts come across, and sometimes they don't. But it was incredible, the encouragement, the love, just even like the little heart that someone would send, right, or the fact that they liked it, or, you know, they gave you a blue thumbs up or whatever, like, it's incredible. And what's also incredible is how your attitude is when you write messages. So to give context to everyone listening, Angie's army is a Facebook group, you should become part of it, just reach out to me, and I'll give you the details if you can't find it. But, you know, I was literally talking to my best friend Brooke about this last night, we were just like she's posting a status. That is not good news. And she's making it sound like she got a job promotion. And we were just like, it's, it's incredible. That's the kind of life I want to live, you know, challenging all of us in the best of ways. Why are you framing everything in such a positive, uplifting? Like, what is compelling you to do that? Honestly. Because God has been so good to me my entire life. Hobie and I were talking about it, you know, I asked Jesus come into my heart when I was eight or nine years old, things weren't the greatest when I was probably like in middle school, and then high school, they just they weren't my family dynamics. I love my mom very much. Unfortunately, I haven't talked to my dad in over 15 years. I'm hoping that I can see him summer, I'm hoping that there's a chance that I can just see him. He may not remember who I am. So I think that would probably be better for me. But with all that said, just talking with my husband about it this past weekend, God has just blessed me tremendously. I have an amazing husband. And I have two beautiful girls. And I two wonderful international students in my life. And I have amazing family and friends. And people that like I got to meet. I thought, Oh, when I was 19 I thought I had this great relationship with God, right? I'm going to college and I'm praying 45 minutes to call. Like, right, yeah. Then I married my husband and I'm like, Okay, I really have to grow in my faith. Right? Then my husband loses his job, right before a baby was born. And I'm like, wow, okay, what are we going to do? Right? Telling him? Don't worry. We just need to pray about it. At that point in 2004 I didn't know my spiritual gift was prayer. I've learned that since that's why I do ask people because I finally for like the last six years, my head been telling me, baby, you have a line you have a direct line to God. Like he made an answer exactly what you're asking but man, it's just awesome. Finally, it was someone else telling me that your spiritual gifts in Vedic Tom? Yeah. So can you unpack that? Can you unpack what what the spiritual gift of prayer means for people that may not know? A spiritual gift is something God gives? Okay, so as our pastor preaches weekend, God gives each of us spiritual gifts. And it's just a matter of okay, what's your spiritual gift? Is it prayer? Is it serving? Right? We, the two of us have a really good friend named Mel. And I really feel her spiritual gift is bringing people together in celebrating like, Yes, she is so tremendous at that. And, you know, again, blessed because my husband has taught her since she was in third grade. Like he got to teach you right, like, so people have spiritual gifts. So this spiritual gift of mine is prayer. I know for a fact someone at our church asked me to specifically pray for their root. Didn't ask anybody else didn't talk to their small group about it. She just said, All right, well just send it the energy, you know, because she's sick. So I don't want to send her something real big. So I'll just send her the roof. Yeah, it was it needed to pass inspection. She was having a second opinion come and look at it. It passed inspection. And I was the only one that was praying about it. And so she was just like, and she went into her small group that night. She said, Listen, everyone, you have a prayer, you just send it to Angie. Good. Because let me tell you, and she told them what had occurred. And I think an important note about that is that when when you pray, because I don't know where everyone's you know, spiritual journey is, but so people see prayer is this like, really daunting thing? And like, holy cow, this is overwhelming. But it gets less overwhelming. The more you do it, to the point where you can be like, Andrea, and you can literally go up to a stranger and ask how can I pray for you? And I think the most important part of this is that when you pray, you are praying with full faith, God is going to answer whether it be yes or no, he's going to answer and that Exactly, exactly. He just wants us to talk to him. It's that simple. It's, it's so simple. Yep. He just wants the relationship. Sometimes if you can't pray, the Holy Spirit, here's your groans and your bones. And I think that's what's tremendous. Yeah. And I think that on that note, there could be someone listening who, let's say, maybe they're like, oh, that sounds so woowoo. Or maybe they're a little bit jaded how and or why did you not give up your hope, or your faith, or be tempted to do so throughout this entire thing? When you are in mass amounts of suffering physically, because on April 5, member, I found out third, on the fifth. I was worshipping him. I honestly I truly feel that he said to me, I was all alone in our bedroom, and he said, I got you EMG but it will be rough. Okay, I don't know if you've ever heard anything like that from God. But I heard that. I was like, okay, am I just imagining something? Okay, so yeah, y'all out there that might be listening, right? Hi. Yes. Here's the deal. God is amazing. Jesus died for us. And yes, we as people may sin, that when we repent our sins, the enemy is scared when we repent. That is showing the enemy that he has no hold on us. And then when we repent, Jesus's blood washed as white as snow. You know, we repent when we repent, we move away from it, and we you know, so I think that's just amazing. i That's why I didn't give up hope. Right? I didn't give up hope because I have seen so much my entire life, right my entire life and I still we are sinners by nature. You know, we were born sinners. And I just think of all the times that he's been with me, right. I've asked him to make my you know, like, okay, my surgery, right? All these people praying it was major, major surgery. Have no idea how major it was. Yeah. 11 things out of my body. Okay, removing 11 things out of your body. It kind of they dissected my intestines. All the problems that they told me I could have had. I didn't have I didn't have a, like a stole bag outside of my body. I didn't have that. Why can I not drop my hope? Because during chemo? Yeah. Was it rough? Absolutely. Did he tell me it was going to be rough? Yes, he did. Am I going to glorify him? Yes, I will. Because I had no dosage reductions in my chemo. I had no delay. He's in my chemo. And I had to not get new lasta at all. In my clinical study coordinator told me, it has been a very long time since there has been somebody that I've known that those three things. Not one of them failed. And I remember one time, that same lady with the roof, I let her know my numbers are low, I might need new lasta she sent me a text. No, you will not. God won't let it happen. And she is truly amazing. Love it. I love that. That's a That's a brilliant response. I think of that verse in First Peter, where it says, always be prepared to give an answer for this for this hope and this faith that you have. And that's that's a perfect, perfect way to explain that. And so now I want to get to this whole concept of bad things happening to good people, right? Because on the outset, people that know you would say there's absolutely nothing that warrants and GE getting cancer. So what has made this with taking this whole concept into account of bad things happen to good people? Why? And what has compelled you to not hold this against God? Especially because he said, I've got you but it's gonna be rough knowing that God could heal you. Okay, so that's a good question, right? Why do bad things happen to good people? Well, for starters, why am I good? My good because I go to church on Sundays. Yeah, right. Like, what's that definition of good. My husband said that you're not even 43 You've never put a cigarette in your mouth. Ever. Yeah, you don't drink. You drink water and almond milk. Like, you know, and then looking back at my family history. That's not my family history. My father had colon cancer, you know, so like, he even said, you know, he and, and I and to be quite honest, though. I did. I did. I said that. I think it was when we found out that the cancer had returned. I said, I don't know why I had the moment I was crying. Absolutely. Was I cry. Yeah. And I had the moment I just don't understand why you're right. Like, have a pity party myself. No, I don't want to have a pity party on myself. Anytime we leave even a hairline of fear in our lives. The devil is going to come in. And when I first was diagnosed, I didn't know what I know about God's word. Even today. I didn't know that back in April 2020. I called my mom and I said, Mom, I'm going to tell you right now. I'm not sick because of God. God did not do this to me. The world did this to me. I'm going to get better because of God. In Mom, I need you to pray that that was probably a very, very powerful conversation. Mom, I can't have you crying. I need you to pray. And fast forward to January of 2021. I told her the news and before I could even get it out of my mouth. My mom was saying, Well, we're gonna pray. And that was really a lot. That was really wonderful to hear that I didn't have to prompt asking her to pray. Like, yeah, is it scary? Absolutely. It's scary to be told that you have stage four cancer and then the next time you're given a timeframe. Well, that's because the patient has, you know, like, yeah, me. Yeah, I asked. Okay. Yeah, got the Kleenex wiped away. Okay, honey, what chemo regimen you want to go on? If you are if you have complete faith that God's gonna heal you, then you need to live it right. You need to be walking it you tell people, you know, you tell people and I am I am feeling better every day, right? Am I having downloads? Absolutely. But guess what, I'm going to wake up and I'm going to praise God because I have another day. I'm going to praise him because I have two feet. I'm going to praise him because I can see I'm going to praise him because I have two hands. I'm going to praise Him because I'm gonna work that I just, there's just, you know, there's so much in the world that people don't have. And, you know, like, you know, we're going through this COVID Crazy stuff still, right? You know, I'm not able to hug people the way I want to hug them. But I'm still going to give glory because he's hugging me. The Holy Spirit had me the whole time I was in the host hospital. The whole time. I went through chemo alone, right? Because I have the goodness of people sending me messages sending me prayers through a text message, sending me a song through an Instagram right through through maybe posting it posting just a cute message up on Facebook. Right? I mean, just absolutely incredible. Sending me gifts in the mail. It's awesome, right? Yeah, yeah, but you So it's not that bad things happen to good people. It's unfortunately, we as people when we fear, that's how the devil wins. He's not going to get any power, we have the authority over him and diseases. And when we cast him out, he's scared. When we say by His stripes, we are healed, I am healed by Jesus is striped, he's scared. And that's what I'm learning. Somebody was so wonderful, they gave me a DVD set. Okay, 20 DVDs, 30 reasons why it's God's will to heal. I am taking notes, I'm taking notes with each DVD. It's very, very powerful. And I'm learning a lot. And I think because of that learning, my mindset is a lot different than it even was in April. And I know, you know, like, I can go back and I can look at my Facebook posts. And when I say Glory to God, I would I would say, back then, God is so good. No, God is amazing. He's incredible. And the reason why I, I feel like I can do that is because I'm diving into his word, and I'm learning so much more. When I came to Amplified on January 24, something changed. We found out January 21, the cancer was back and it had spread this point, we didn't know how bad it had spread. January 24, did something to me. I heard from God again. After January 24. The Holy Spirit was in me in a different kind of way to give context for what happened on January 24. She had mentioned the word amplify, which is the name of a Church in Pittsburgh. And our friend Mel had invited Angie and her husband to come to our church service. And essentially the whole church was praying for Angie. And that was an incredible thing. And I wonder, I'm going to try and put links in the description for people to see photos of what happened that day. So I just want to give that context. So people understand January 24, was a marker for Angie because of that, correct? Yes, it was a marker. Because of finding out the second round of news, Rommel reached out. And her obedience to hearing the Holy Spirit was tremendous. And I've told her the January 21 22nd 23rd. Hubby and I were boo hooing, crying. But at the same time, one of the office ladies Her name is Christine grabbed him on the 21st and said, you listen here, the two of you God gave you, God gave you each other. You go home, you grab that beautiful wife of yours, you cry together, but you worship God. Even if you're not singing, and you're just crying and holding each other, put the worship music on. And he was obedient. And he did. He is now finding stuff on the Bible app about healing and about the Scriptures. And so it's a different type. It's a different type of feeling now. So like back in April, you know, my bedroom, there's T shirts of scripture verses, there's T shirts of song lyrics, there's one more chemo to go. Praise God be with, you know, now, there's so much different when I put the T shirts up. Yeah, and the T shirts were a motivation. They were a reminder that, you know, if I didn't have the chance to open the Bible, or I wasn't feeling good, I could just turn over and see them. It seems like the whole the whole theme through this is that you're choosing to have a victorious mindset and consuming only content that would further validate that for you. Yes. And unfortunately, those times where the darkness comes in, it's it's not good, right? You know, like, oh, Googling like, okay, stage three ovarian cancer, what are the survival rates? That's not good. Right? That's not good. And that's what happened on April 4, I went down and I told my husband about it. And he No more. No more Angie, you do it anymore. You're in trouble, right? So now, because we've listened to these DVD sets of healing, we have decided as a married couple, we're not looking at the test results anymore. I'm actually going to get rid of the my chart app on my phone, because there's an app. But every time an email is, every time a message is put up on my chart, I get an email. I now take the email, I just move it over. I don't even log in I don't look anymore. We'll wait till we see the doctor. Now. That's just something new. Let's talk about this. Because I think this is a very interesting habit that you have started to create because we're in this culture that's driven by fear. Right? And you are saying no, I don't care. I don't care what those emails say. Because I know where my hope is found. So you can't scare me anymore. Yeah, that's that's so darn impressive. I'm ready to unsubbed drive to 90% of my emails right now because you just said that so. So thank you. That's such a that's such an awesome challenge. Well, that's what that's how that's how the enemy wins. I knew that fear wasn't a good thing, right? I mean, a girlfriend of mine sent me carry job song, no fear, if you've never heard it, it's an awesome song. Right? We're gonna have no fear, no fear. No, for God is good. Right? For He is good. He is God. And, you know, I think is a person that is that is sick, right? It just, it just all goes back to God. It's just his goodness, right? It's just everything that Jesus has done, like Jesus died for me. Me die for me on the cross. And I will have no fear. Because when I have fear, even a sliver of it, that's when the enemy gets in. And it says, In Scripture, Scripture says that we have the authority, Jesus Christ has given us the authority to drive out demons and diseases. And that's why these healings are so incredible. You hear stories of people being healed. So yeah, this is why I'm excited to learn, right? Yeah. Like we just we think we know so much. And then you learn so much more. You learn so much about God's word and about everything. Like it's incredible. Because you had spoken about the conversation with your mom and asking, asking her to pray, and then it was reciprocated. And she said, No, we're gonna pray before you even asked. Yeah, I'm really just continuously moved by the fact of how you are reaching out to other people. And you're not doing it as like, oh, I need to get I need to get the focus off of me. That's not what you're doing it. You're doing it literally. Because the overflow of your heart, I have this much love in my heart. I want to pour it out to people. How can I bless you? And I know what your spiritual gift is what you're saying. But I want to know, what is it that makes you have the strength to day in day out? Even though you're feeling pain? Say, Who can I bless today? I just didn't realize when I was like giving all that time to God. Right. So whether I was singing and worshiping, or whether I was writing in my prayer journal. Yeah, I just didn't even realize what it was doing for myself. I didn't realize it when I got out of the bed. Holy cow, I could go and I could, you know, at one point, my daughter said, Okay, Dad, I don't think mom's sick anymore. So like, Should we just like, what should we do? And I'm like, Listen, I'm just if God's gonna give me a day, and it's going to be good. I'm going to wake up and I'm going to, you know, I'm going to be glad in it, right? Yeah. And I had no idea. Well, it wasn't until before radiation, I was in a lot of pain. So like, I never wanted to wake up Hubby, because he is still working. I decided that I was not going to go, I was not going to return to work. And he said, No, your job is fighting cancer. Just like Jason Pastor Jason Howard said on January 24. He said, Hey, everyone. Yeah. And he's battling cancer, it was so awesome to use the word battling. And it was so awesome that he just had cancer. Nobody knew what kind that was the incredible part, right? So like, battling, fighting, that's my job. So I would literally not want to wake him up, I would go over into our elder bedroom. And I would just write, you know, like, thank you God. In my chemo journal, I would actually take that with me and I would just write, okay, I'm up at this time, in God's word, or whatever, whatever it was at that point. So sometimes I would sing songs that people would send me I would listen to them. I would sometimes pray for people, I would sometimes look back at my prayer journal. And I'd be like, Okay, well, let me visit. Okay, how is this person doing right now? Like, okay, what's going on with this person, right. And so whether that was through email, or maybe through a social media message, or maybe through a text message, and I would try my best to go back and visit those people. And what I found is if, like, regardless of, you know, like how they were doing, that was just, we are called as Christians. How can I call myself a Christian? If I'm not asking my fellow brothers and sisters? How can I be praying for you? We're gonna We're called to be the hands and feet of Jesus. And he went around and he did things so selflessly, like he just always did for people, right? And especially now with COVID. You can't just walk out or you just can't go to someone's house and say, Hey, how can I be praying for you? How can I help you today? know our one friend, she just had baby number four. And before COVID Savannah and I would go over and just let her and her husband go out, you would just stay with the kids. And just just go out. Just enjoy yourself. Right? And I just want to go over there and I just want to say go out, but I can't cuz, um, you know, and so like, so just looking back, and what I realized was over the time of laying on that bed, just praying for people, the time would be eight o'clock, and I would feel better all of a sudden, and then I'd fall back asleep. I'm like, Glory to God. Thank you, God. Thank You, Jesus. You're so wonderful to me in it. It's tremendous. Yeah. Well, like not taking any opioids, not taking any muscle spasms, like, just diving into God's Word or praying is helping me. And I think that's the fear going out of my mind, in my mind has been set on God. Well, that is challenging in the best of ways. Because you really, you really are trying to live up to the best of your abilities, one praying without ceasing, and to fixing your eyes on Jesus. Every single second, and that's what's so cool to see. Because you are so strong, physically, in spite of that, I mean, look, you're literally jumping around when I saw you on January 24, playing with a toddler, I want you to share. I know you said it on. I think you said on Facebook, the quote you said, was a recent revelation to you about healing. In April, when I did find out it came, you know, just okay, I have to realize that no matter what, I'm either going to be healed because of the medicine. Or I will be healed because I'll be in heaven. It's a win win. There's so much glory in that victorious mindset. Because it is literally, that revelation of know, God is the healer. And it's crazy. You know, it's, it's terrifying for so many people to come to that reality. But for you, you're having this mindset where you're like, I love Jesus, why wouldn't I love to spend eternity with her? You know? And, and that's powerful. So it is it is it's, I will thank you. It's, it's powerful to say, Is it scary to say? Yeah, it's scary to say I have a 15 year old daughter, that is the best gift my husband gave to me was giving her to me, right? We have a 24 year old, I walked into her life. And that was one of the best experiences of my entire life, right? Being able to be accepted into her life. Do I want to leave either one of them? Absolutely not. Right? Do I want to leave my husband? No, that's why I'm gonna fight. Carol Deelen artist is her name gave me these DVDs to watch. And she has told me that there's no rushing back those DVDs if I need to watch them again, because she wants me to have these DVDs in my mind and my heart and my soul. Because he is going to heal me. I guess my final question for you would be and I'm gonna get completely give me the floor. Let's say there's someone who's listening to all of this. And they're like, this is all great, crazy story. Happy for your mindset. But I don't think there's anything that can change my mind. I want to give up. Whatever their circumstances, what would you and you want to say to them? I'd want to say to them, I had a nephew that died in 22,001. He didn't have the chance to fight. Because he had cerebral palsy. I had a sister that was killed in a car accident. She didn't have the chance to fight because she was instantly killed. That's not oh, I want everyone to feel bad for me. That whatever you're going through, and it's not even if you don't believe in a God. But I would truly invite you to reach out to me direct message me through Instagram direct message me through Facebook Messenger on that Angie's Army Group, just put something on there? Yes. Tell me about your Jesus. I would truly love to share I would. I would connect you with people that have more knowledge if you want the knowledge, but I would just I would just try to share with you the love that he's given me and, and, you know, if you want to give up? No, you need to look at yourself and you need to know that you are God's child. That you look at yourself in the mirror and you say, God loves me. Jesus died for me. Every single pair on your body. God knows how many you are worth that. And you and and whoever is listening to it. This whether you are 60 or you're seven or you're 22 or you just dumped your boyfriend or girlfriend, or, you know, you don't have anyone or whatever the case, what like Joe said, Whatever your situation is, there's, there's never not, you should always fight, you should, you should always just fight and know that you are so loved. And if you don't know that, you just come and we'll have a talk. Because you are loved. You are a child of God, this is your chance to fight. So Will Will all of us take, take that take the charge, and actually use that opportunity we have to fight. That's so good. That's so powerful. Thank you for that. I just think it's, you know, like, yeah, did I have the serious talk? Yeah, this book, I'm gonna write a book, God, talk to me and amplify, when we were singing? Yeah, come on. gonna write a book, right? I have three authors that have already said, we're going to walk alongside you. We're gonna get it done, right. And I had to look at my husband. And I said, Okay, if I don't write it, you have to promise me that you will. Because you have everything to write it. And he promised me. That's awesome. So what Carol said to me, the one day we were talking, I was she actually said, she said, he Angie, she goes, you know, what I think happens is I think that people that are fighting, I think they get a glimpse of heaven. And that's why they let go, because it's just so glorious. Wow. Wow. Well, you're a gift to so many people. know, so many people have gifted me, hon. Angie, I love you. We're praying for you. And I believe that the victory is already in route and healing is already in route. And we're going to see it through. Amen. Wow, I'm still speechless by the power that was in that conversation and everything that Angie shared. And quite honestly, I don't want to do takeaways for this episode like we normally would, because I think this entire episode has been one big takeaway, but here's what I'm going to do instead, if Jesus is important to your life, if you have a faith, if you would just pause this podcast right now and pray for healing over Andrews body, I want everybody I know and everybody that listens to this to all come together and really become a community in a force right now to lift our friend Angie up in prayer, because we know as we have heard Angie, so eloquently state in this episode that God hears and God answers our prayers, and we are praying for healing period. So I would just be so honored if you guys would pause right now and do that. And if you had listened to this episode today, and somebody came to mind and you thought, wow, this person needs to hear it. Please, by all means, share this episode. Angie has told me that she wants this episode to get into the hands of as many people as possible and in touch as many lives as it could, because she wants everything that she's been fighting for, to encourage and inspire others. So I hope you guys know how much you are loved. And that you absolutely reach out to Angie on Instagram. She loves chatting with people her Instagram handle is an gang Good God 17 Or you can follow the Angie's army Facebook page. As I know she would love to hear all who listen to this and all who are supporting her guys. I want you to know how insanely loved you are, how grateful I am for you joining us in these conversations and we will be back in the next two weeks with another great one.